i dont know why... but as wrong as everything is, i know it has to happen this way. there are so many things that just make all of this make so much sense.
strange things, like connections to dreams.
like the fact that what we talk about there completely applies to here.
and just some of the things you said.

i havent felt such profound emotions for a couple months (yea, i know that pales in comparison to your years...)

i just know i can prove you wrong.
gosh, is there ever something you just know in your heart. you just KNOW.
Oh god.
I just need to be able to express this. but its so complicated.

i'm exhausting myself.
i need to get to work so that when you finally do get back to me, i can talk to you and focus on only that.