Refuge


In the blazing peace of the desert night I sprawl across the bed diagonally sprawled across the loft floor, and read about this landscape, it's unexpected vitality and fragility, through the words of Terry Tempest Williams. Soft voices hum the song of simplicity--crickets chirping their infinite prayer, and the lovers downstairs pouring warm cups of tenderness from their lips. The aroma drifts up to kiss my nose. 


I had spent the morning carefully documenting their lives. Collecting the images that are day-to-day to them, and dream to me. The smells hanging in the kitchen don't show up in the photographs, but settle on my clothes and in my hair, and I breathe them in until they sit at the pit of my being where they will permeate into my deepest longing. The colors stain me like the walls. Years-old swaths of plaster paint tests and small patterns that were once a solid vision, have settled into their incompletion, completing the dream for me. There is more story left to tell.

This is how I know I enter right in the middle of their lives. I stay out of the way, for once not wanting to change anything--actually wanting not to change anything. Even as I tiptoe closer to description, I risk crushing the cryptobiotic crust that holds their roots to this ground.

In the Fiery Furnace you don't step off the slick-rock; that kind of sand takes decades to build and I am afraid of eroding the already-slim margin of life that somehow manages to take root here and grow. The brush flowers grow up through the tiniest cracks of solid rock and bloom in the shadows.


10/2, TBC

Moab, Me


Simplicity

While she starts the water and measures the pasta,
he sets the table and peels the garlic.
She cuts up brocolli, strips snow peas, readies fish-
he presses the garlic, fixes her a kir and him a gin
she saute's the vegetables while he grates cheese,
readies the candles and puts flowers on the table.
She puts pasta in the boiling water and fixes salad.
which he takes to the table with the cheese.
She mixes a salad dressing, he opens the wine
and takes it to the table where everything is ready,
except for the pasta. so he lights the candles
and puts salad from a big walnut bowl into small ones.

Now she or he brings the pasta, greens and fish
mixed in, and they sit to talk, drink wine and eat.
Though October, they sit on a small screened porch
in the back of the house, where they have lived
for twelve years of their twenty together,
the last six, the children gone, alone.
Once, during dinner, if they stop talking
and listen to the music, they may, without drama,
hold hands a moment, almost like a handshake
by now, most friendly, confirming the contract,
and more. She is a pretty woman of 51, who has
kept herself trim and fit. He is 56 and hasn't.

Later, they will clear the dishes and clean up,
and she will bring tea and fresh fruit to bed,
where they will watch a little television or not,
with herbal tea and the fruit. After that, if
they make love or not, they will talk a long time,
her work or his, the budget, the middle east,
this child or that, how good dinner was, how
easy it is, the times like this, when it's simple.

~Easy, by Roland Flint.