it was stormy outside this morning. it was stormy until i called my dad. i went out to the field and laid in the middle of it and just cried to him . and he talked to me. and the sun came out. and it was my favorite type of day; light rainclouds and sunlight shining through the sprinkles of falling rain. and i was calm.

and then Nygil leaves. And its stormy again.
and I'm crying again. and it really fucking hurts.
and why did everything converge last weekend? and again this weekend?
Why did the two people I related to most, suddenly go away from me?
And Ariel too.
And i cant find anyone. Where is everyone?