loyalty
(lies)
truth
(loss)
time
friends
reality
realization
acceptance
patience
(anger)
love
hope
change
difference
distance
pace
consistency
(weakness)
endurance
focus
(buildup)
release
(tears)
hugs
(aggression)
apology
listening
opening
(locked up, closed off, shut away)
help
(hurt)
understanding
persistence
right (and wrong)
honesty
trust
-power-
say, show, do
-push-
wait
adjust or allow
feel, flow or fight
connection
reflection
(rejection)
contradiction or solidification?

it all exists in one world,
in the repercussions of one act...
and it is all a question of what to do next.
or, more accurately: "what now?"
(because later may not matter, and a choice to do may not be real)

it may well be impossible to hold it all,
but what do you let go? and when? and how? and why?

maybe nothing, maybe never, maybe no way, maybe no reason.
maybe no answer.
maybe no solace.
maybe circles, cycles, infinite loops of q and a.
maybe lines, straight, unending path with no destination.
maybe random.
maybe destined.

maybe nothing.
maybe everything.

cryptic, i know;
i am trying to understand it all too.

for now, briefly, I just want to turn my mind off.
I need to sleep.
I don't want dreams.

I'd really just enjoy some utter calm,
some comfort without consequence,
some peace within.