i am angry
and guilty
and ugly

i don't want to see anyone
or do anything

i feel beaten to near death.
my heart is hardly trying anymore

what can
how can...

i want to heal wholly.

i feel empty
i hate everything

i can't find hope
anywhere.

i am angry
i am guilty
i am sick
and sick of
you
and sick for
you
and sick with
anger
guilt
hatred because i fucking let myself love again.